My mom being hospitalized changed everything
Today I wanted to take a moment to chat about my mom's hospitalization.
Last week I went off to New York City. I had this trip planned for over a month a month. The plan was to reconnect, explore the city and go to tan event called Strong New York.
A week before going, I got the phone call nobody ever wants to get.
I had noticed that my mom was not answering me much during one of her favorite days, her birthday.
It was strange, so I talked to my stepdad and he informed me that she had been hospitalized.
You see... my mom is an amazing woman.
- Special needs preschool teacher
- College professor, teaching two classes
- Getting her SECOND masters degree
- AND fighting for the rights of all the teachers to help them have a better experience
She is a force. On top of that, she is ALWAYS checking in on me and the rest of the family.
She's 63 years old, and a perfectionist who literally puts 110% into everything she does.
With that, however, comes a tremendous amount of pressure and stress.
So much so that she spiraled into something called Psychosis. This causes paranoia and detachment from reality.
When I went home, I had to drive 2 hours to her hospital just to see her for a short time.
When I looked at her I just held her. She was physically in front of me, but mentally her shine was gone, her light was gone. She was barely there. She didn't fully notice me.
This was heartbreaking.
While the doctors said with time she will become herself again, I am still worried that she will never be the same or have that same light.
Why am I sharing this?
- You never know what the people around you are going through. ALL of us are just doing the best we can
- It put into perspective what is REALLY important and WHO is really important. At any moment, anything can happen. Don't take life for granted.
- While I have been taking care of HER, I was also proud of myself for using my "tool kit" of experiences I have had to help me cope. I recognized that while I take care of her I also need to take care of myself. Because if I stop taking care of myself, I wont be able to do anything for her. You know what this is called? Growth.
So this is a reminder. Whatever it is that you are going through. Do NOT forget to take a moment to breathe, to get movement in, and take care of YOU.
Thank you for reading and allowing me to be vulnerable and real with you.
Through this all I am focusing on a few projects but also giving myself to breathe.
- 1:1 Coaching: I have two spots left! if you would like to see if it's a good fit for you just apply here.
- Speaking: I landed a speaking engagement in Utah Friday to speak to 50 men!
- Book: I am still in the works of writing my book to help share the tools I've learned around my journey
- Pull-ups: I am revamping my DIY pull-up program. The new versions will be out in January so stay tuned!
- Retreat: we have taken the survey into account and are planning to launch details to retreat soon!
Coach Angela
